Thursday, November 08, 2007

Night Darlings

I was supposed to come home, have dinner, clean my bedroom, rehearse for tomorrow's show, and sleep.

Instead, I came home, had hot cereal, canceled rehearsal, and sat in front of my computer.

Okay, not quite what I had in mind, but you know what? I feel very, strangely, good. This past year has been weird. I haven't quite been myself, and I wasn't sure what to do about it. When you can't quite put your finger on why you feel shitty, it's hard to address it. So you just keep on trucking. And the feeling gets worse, or it gets heavier, or it does whatever a bad feeling does. It gets badder, if I may use that term.

But then tonight, in chatting with my lovely roommate, I realized that I could just let it all go. I'm fine. Life is fine, and I like chocolate cake. Sorry, I mean I like life. When I am surrounded by chocolate cake. Fuck, sorry, I mean always. I like life always (with chocolate cake).

Okay, I don't know why my fingers keep typing that. Maybe because I came across this recipe and I can't get it out of my mind. BH, darling... Could we (cough... you) make this?

So goodbye to feeling sub par. There is cake to eat!

Ora Cogan, who is splitting the bill with me tomorrow night, is crashing here this evening. She will be here soon and we will play banjo and guitar and sing songs about sad, wonderful things. Meeting other songwriters can be such a treat. It's like you both have the same guilty pleasure, so you can have an entire conversation about medium gage acoustic strings and not feel like a pretentious asshole. In preparation of her arrival, I plan to make a big cup of cocoa. For myself.

Night darlings.

6 comments:

Evey said...

So I tried to read your blog while at a school computer, and they blocked it for inappropriate language. And they didn't block any other blogs I read. So now you can say you've been censored and rant about it! How fun! Stick it to the man and whatnot.

Andrea SK said...

Hahahahaha.... That is AWESOME!

I guess I do have a tendency to shoot off at the mouth a lot. Is that unbecoming of a folk singer? Maybe I should get into metal?

URBAN PEDESTRIAN said...

If you're having vague feelings of being out of sorts, it might be your environment? Move around some furniture, clear some clutter, unplug stuff, redecorate (ha ha), move to a new place.

Andrea SK said...

That's a good suggestion. I have big plans for a house re-organization this weekend.

Apparently I also have record low levels of vitamin D in my system. Who knew that this was some sort of stabilizer? Yikes. I'll get right on that.

URBAN PEDESTRIAN said...

Ya, vitamin D is the hot new thing everyone is suddenly discovering. I hoped you stocked up when it was like $3 a bottle because I suspect it's now going to go for $20. I suggest a nice long walk outdoors every day - does wonders. I know because I'm the urban pedestrian - Ta-da!

Andrea SK said...

I wish I had stocked up on vitamin D earlier... It's so weird when vitamins get trendy! I will be taking more long walks for sure. Walking is one of my all-time fave things to do anyways. It's a win win situation!