Friday, January 25, 2008

The Nerves Have Kicked In

Of course, now that I've gone and gotten all excited about Vinyl Cafe, I'm worried they will have a technical problem and the song won't be played (insert nervous laughter here). Because, and I'm sure I've told you all before, but I've worked in radio, and after having someone say "motherfucker" on the air (nationally! and live!) I know anything can happen.

Repeating: Everything will be fine. Just fine.

I had a great rehearsal last night, and I'm really looking forward to tonight's show at the Rainbow. Mind you, I managed to cut the tip of my finger on a banjo string, and now it stings to type and to play my instruments. Hah. Nothing that a few screwdrivers can't fix (the alcoholic kind, not the kind that you use to hang pictures and open paint cans...).

You know, it's funny, but until this year, I have NEVER gotten nervous for a show. I was raised performing. I always thought getting nervous was a weird thing that other people dealt with. People who weren't me.

And now? I'm nervous about everything. Rehearsals, shows, interviews... Things that are second nature to me at this point. Eventually I'll snap out of it. I hope.

It's nothing a few screwdrivers can't fix.


Anonymous said...

I vividly remember the last time I honestly said I was "excited" to go on stage, rather than feeling nervous. And that was over three years ago.

I don't know what it is...are we getting MORE self-concious with age? Are we just under more pressure? Not sure...


Andrea SK said...

I don't know either, but it's so weird. I thought it worked the other way around... Start off nervous, and get more confident with age. Why must we do everything backwards?